Like a dog chasing a car… What’s he gunna do with it when he gets it?
“ You want love, but you fear it… ”
Like a dog chasing a car… What’s he gunna do with it when he gets it?
I did all that I could
And you could if you would and you knew you should
But it was no good
It was no good
We gave up before we ever began
And I tried to erase you but your hand held mine against the chalk board and begged me not to stand still any longer.
Oh boy I wish… I wish I was stronger…
Between this life and the next I’m afraid I’ll get lost
I know the price you’ve paid and I counted the cost
But I still feel lost… I still feel lost…
If I could somehow grab hold of your hand and mane sense of all the time in the sand that trickles out this glass heart of a ticker, as my time surly ticks out.
And I still don’t know what I’m about.
But at least I tried. I tried and I tried and I tried and I tried. But the more I tried the more I cried. And the more I cried, the more I laid down and died.
It takes time to turn coal into diamonds. I’m striving for gems but my time is dividing faster than I thought it would. And I’ll never be the diamond that I thought I could…
But I still tried… I still tried…
“ Life. You’ve been throwing me some pretty rough curve balls. ”
But I think we’re starting to get the hang of it.
“ It’s pretty crazy how someone can drop out of your life and not care. And keep living happily while you die alone. ”
Bitches be loco
“ Whenever I start to get self righteous I just tell myself I’m a shit head then go back to normal. ”
Never judge others. Ever. Period.
I’m walking through the park in Kelowna, BC. It’s summer time. The sun is shining, couples have spiraled out to soak up the love that’s in the air. And I’m too busy thinking about how I’m too messed up to be thinking.
The past week I’ve been going over my life trying to make sense of it all, and upon review. I’ve realized that I haven’t been living the great life I thought I was. I’ve been trying to live a nice life pleasing to God and trying to be nice to people. But I’ve been selfish and unknowingly leaving people laying my destruction.
I’m sorry to those people who have been hurt by the ricochet shrapnel from the destruction that is my life choices. I regret every day the suffering that you may have received just by being near to me. And this is why whenever something bad happens to me I just take it. I feel like I deserve it. Even if it wasn’t intentional. I still made someone feel this way. No no excuse for that.
So today I think I’ve finally accepted the fact that I’m crazy. And that the best thing a crazy person can do, is just accept that he is crazy and try to be more considerate and cautious. Keep being myself, but not as ignorant. You can change who you are, but what do you change into?
I say, change into a new pair of briefs and watch re-runs of Full House and Boy Meets World.
If your going to unknowingly being down the whole world. At least do it by numbing yourself with classic television. We all know I don’t condone drugs.
